I love teaching. I have come a long way to where I am right now. Everything I have planned seemed to be part of the Big Boss’ plan. I wanted this. I worked hard for this, but right now, I just found out my dream job isn’t my dream job anymore.
Every work place operates with a particular style. At the very least however, it should have a clear cut system of rules and regulations, rewards and sanctions. Studies have shown that species who have survived has the most sophisticated system and hierarchy among all species, take for instance bees, ants and lions. It doesn’t need a genius to figure out then that without a system, employees, customers and even employers will soon find themselves heading for chaotic mess.
Without a system, all persons in a specific workplace will burn out. Who is responsible for this? Who should be doing that? What happens if one doesn’t comply? What are the consequences of unruly conduct and the like? If no clear answer can be given to these questions, then the system is problematic.
No successful company or institution will survive and thrive on open forums (forums is preferred than fora), confrontations to solve issues and problems. In fact, these are very unprofessional means of dealing with certain issues for these methods involve a lot of bias, emotions and subjectivity. This is why mediations are best used, with a specific group of people responsible for the wellness of every one in the work force. One can’t just put in his hands what’s right and what’s wrong even if he thinks his institution is a “family.”
Sadly, however, a systematized institution isn’t possible or at least realistic to some institutions. And for institutions like these, I have concluded that the best way to co-exist with your colleagues is to take care of yourself and your career and be indifferent to others unless needed.
I feel overworked, fatigued and burnt out. TOO MUCH DRAMA, TOO MUCH ACTIONS WITHOUT THINKING, TOO MUCH WORDS UTTERED WITHOUT EVIDENCE.
Amidst all of these, where am I? Well, I didn’t go to school today because I don’t want to be part of it anymore. But I have given my word, and tomorrow I shall go back to work and enjoy the only thing that’s keeping me sane in this weird, unsystematized institution. The only thing that is my students.