I haven’t blogged since Nov of 2012. My mind is full of thoughts about life and where I am right now. I am about to end my third year of teaching and at the moment I am starting to think of other things I can do or other places I can be. Top of my head: do I really want to be a teacher?
Teaching sucks you into this limbo where you find your self asking, is teaching for me? For one, I cannot complain about my salary as mine is one of the highest-paying schools for an early grades teacher. The work does however make sure that that pay is worth their pockets, thus I have meetings until nine, work I have to bring home, and a class that I’m not even sure is paid.
Yes, money matters to me. Probably not as much as it matters to the bourgeois, but it does. You see, I have been, and probably will be teaching children most of my life. I want to for I find peace in being with them.But right now, it’s like I’m working the moment I wake up til the moment I sleep. It gets tiring sometimes. With this, it’s like I work and work and work to earn. Money isn’t working for me.
So what if it isn’t working? Well, it is my dream to start my own family (I proudly think I have what it takes to be a good dad) so I have to be financially stable to do that, and as society isn’t really accepting of people like me who are outside the norm–no laws to protect me, no marriages, etc., I have to work harder for I might have to do it on my own. Then again, who knows?
So yes. Money matters to me because I will take more responsibilities when I become a father. I will be living for other people and I have to prepare for that. Right now, I don’t have the financial stability and by the time I become a father, I might have been already burnt out by teaching.
I love teaching, but how do I not burn out and earn more? 
Here’s Tomi Ungerer’s The Three Robbers where they became fathers to many children 🙂
Totoy Guro 
Responsibilities in life. Mahirap nga naman mabuhay sa mundong ito kung tayo naman ay napapagod din. pero masaya din naman mapagod, masaktan, maburnout sa mga bagay na nakaugalian na natin gawin o kailangan gawin. Bakit? siguro dahil sa mga bagay na naituturo saatin nito. mas nagiging mature tayo sa buhay at tayo ay nakakapagisip na ng mga ganitong bagay at nakakagawa ng mga panibagong desisyon sa buhay. masaya kasi nararamdaman natin that we are growing up. 🙂
tama 😀 nice salamat dito
Everyone gets tired of work, even if they love what they do, there will be times of doubt – shadows casting us questions what are we doing – but take some time off, a moment of silence and why we are here, why we are doing such, then perhaps you might get your answer. Or more.
“Choose a job you love and you will never work a day in your life.” – Confucius
This is true. Even if we like our job, there are times that we get tired also and think of things that might make us more happier and more satisfied. However, sometimes we misunderstood our emotion on the things we really want or we really need. It’s up to us, as an individual to see this one.
Like for example, choosing the school we want or the school for our children.
Having the choice to look for more standard and quality education is a great one.
thanks for this, really 😀